That Love Song.

There are days when I feel useless and just plain stuck in a situation that I cannot control. I have often resulted to countless pity parties and endless episodes of over-analyzing things, as if they are of any help to me. During those times, I would often resort in plugging in my earphones, turning on the shuffle mode and drown myself with either unbearable emo-music or contemporary Christian songs with a little of party tunes a.k.a tugs-tugs-tugs music.

Then one morning, as I sulked on my way to the office, I chanced upon Maroon 5’s “She Will Be Loved”.

It was one of those days when I feel like I really want to give up and even prayed, “Lord take my life, it’s chaotic and am tired of thinking.” But as the line progressed I’ve felt different –

“I don’t mind spending everyday...
Look for a girl with a broken smile,
ask her if she can stay a while
and She will be loved...”

Then it dawned on me – it’s as if Jesus is singing it to me! I savoured the moment and realized that it was His way to say that: “Lyka, I am taking care of everything that bothers you, stay close to me and rest in my loving arms.” The next thing I know was tears started rolling down my dry cheeks.

I just felt so special that God would use even a secular song to get my attention. There He was thriving in a love song on cue to grab my worries and assure me that everything is in control. That He is not yet done with me am still a work in progress. That –

I Am Loved and I Matter to Him.

Looking back at that fateful morning, I have never heard that song the same way again.

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Just two days ago (at around 2am), I've decided to tweak the lyrics of the song. This is pretty much a story of a drama queen in need of unconditional love, identity, security and acceptance. Guess who? - Me.

I hope one day, someone with a good singing voice will sing this because I really want to record this so it can be played back in my mp3.

She Will Be Loved (Jesus, this is our love song)

Beauty queen of only 18, she had some trouble with herself
Someone’s always there to help her; she always belonged to someone else.
But... He walked for miles and miles and end up at the cross
Forgave her so many times and loved her even more.

He didn’t mind suffering every pain,
Out in the heat and the scorning shame
Looked for that girl with the broken smile,
asked her if He can stay in her heart
And She will be loved, and she will be loved

Cried at her mirror, He knocks at her door
He says : “I have created you BEAUTIFUL, I know you tend to get so insecure,
that doesn’t matter anymore ”

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies nor compromise that moves Him along
His heart is full and his door’s always open you can come anytime you want

He didn’t mind suffering every pain,
Out in the heat and the scorning shame
Looked for that girl with the broken smile,
asked her if He can stay in her heart

And She will be loved, and she will be loved
and she will be loved and she will be loved

He knows where you hide, alone in your car
Knows all of the things that made up who you are;
He won’t say goodbye,
He’s holding your hand,

Don’t be afraid co’z He’ll catch you every time you fall...

Yeah...

Cried at her mirror, He knocks at her door
He says : “I have created you BEAUTIFUL,”...

He didn’t mind suffering every pain,
Out in the heat and the scorning shame
Looked for that girl with the broken smile,
asked her if He can stay in her heart
And She will be loved, and she will be loved

and she will be loved (please don’t cry, He won’t say goodbye)
and she will be loved (please don’t cry, He won’t say goodbye)

Please don’t cry, He won’t say goodbye
Please don’t cry, He won’t say goodbye
Please don’t cry, He won’t say goodbye